Hey S.

 

Hey,  this is a message to you. You know the thing with Tori and me… we are empaths both. We feel things before we process them intellectually… and when I’m with you it’s calm waters even if you are like ice or on an island, because I can see you. There was never anxiety when I was in your company. A little nervousness maybe.. but I felt at ease with you, even now. It’s also because when around you, I know if you were to start drowning I’d feel it, and I’d dive into that dark cold and pull you back up to the surface like I always have, even if it was with a simple gesture like taking your hand. We’d okay games and travel and watch films all day long (well, once or twice a week), but I’d also be there for you. It’s who I am to you… like I said, your goal with the others was to keep the mask on. But with me you get to live free of it, and the freedom of living as yourself and knowing you are safe and others are too… it would change you into someone new and whole. 

But here, in the dark constantly, I fucking can’t stand it… this anxiety. If you create a strong footing with me in the form of an after world drink every few months, everything is different. Easier.

There’s a link below, it’s a bootleg recording of the song I mention by her about Trent. After he dumped her for Courtney.

The message from me is a plea, a laugh and a smile. Please give it a few minutes of your time… in the bathroom or alone later, it doesn’t matter. Just grab an AirPod, hear what I’m asking. And enjoy the cheeky moment. I might be like Tori when I’ve had my heart broken or in my philosophy over love and sex, but I’m also a very fun, bright and silly. Sexy, exciting, mischievous. Full of light but also a little fire and passion too.  We are boring and passionate equally. It’s a good balance… 

Much love. Thanks for watching S…